Shattered

You've shattered me.

Touched me so deep
You reached into the core of me
and dipped into the murky depths of
my soul.

Swirling thickly, mixing my shades of dark and black and decidedly gray...
blending to light so bright,
Splintering nova,
A myriad sparks,
Each sliver, every shard,
Cutting me open like a million petaled blades.

My anguish, banked for so long,
is broken free to crash,
A force of nature 'gainst me, thru me,
In and out and around me,
Bursting thru my tortuously laid walls,
Leaving me shattered like so many stones tossed about the sea.

I've been broken but
when the pieces settle,
They click back into place,
Maybe not so tightly,
not so firmly bound,
But gently, peacefully.

I am safe.
You have not let me tumble blindly in my epiphany.
You've erased years;
I am re-embodied as my inner child.
Fluttering back and forth
between woman and girl.

In my agony, my ecstasy,
I am renewed.
Wrung out but not wasted,
Dropped from the precipice
but held ever aloft.

Confident, bewildered,
Strong and unsure,
shattered yet whole.

This pleasure, this pain,
feels more like Love
than almost any love
I've ever known.

Thank you...
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